You Are My Sunshine

That is sunshine, isn't it warm and bright?

And those are birds..."chirp, chirp"

These are flowers, they are pretty and they smell nice.

Quiet, calm.  My Son is fascinated as we walk to the mailbox.  He was born during winter, it has been cold and rainy most of his life.  Being outside is a whole new adventure.  Everything is so new, and so vibrant.  His senses are overloaded.

Mornings like this morning refresh my energy, my patience.  They allow me to remember how special this time is at home with him.  How each day he changes so much and how I will never get this exact morning back.  I love sharing new things with him.  I love watching him expand his knowledge and take in the world.  I feel blessed to have these moments.  I hope I can remember and channel this feeling when the morning isn't so peaceful. Two days ago was a rough one. He cried anytime I put him down and refused to nap. Usually I am able to comfort him easily but was unable to on this particular day. I felt quite defeated because I could not get anything on "the list" done. I was distracted. My Husband reminded me, "He just wants to be close to you."

Today I am giving my Son what he wants. I am holding him close, I am wearing him in his carrier while he naps, I am nursing him as long and as often as he likes. I am letting him have what he needs. I am teaching him that I will always be here for him and that he is important to me. He rewards me with smiles and he coos to show me he is happy. I know there will come a day when he no longer wants to be held all day, nursed all day. There will be a time for chores and errands. For now, those things can wait. Today, we are learning about sunshine, and birds, and flowers. Today we are spending the day together.